Monday, June 7, 2010

New Crayons

My big girl and I recycled some crayons the other day.  We've had a bowl of crayon bits for a couple months and we peel them when we feel like it.  Which is not often.

We sorted them by color and put them in a muffin tin.  She did most of the sorting, I offered a few suggestions.  Some of them were appreciated, most were not. :) 

Then, we put them in the oven at 200 degrees F for, oh, 15 minutes or so until they were all melted.  I let them cool on the counter until they were cool to touch, then popped 'em in the fridge for another 15 minutes.

Removed them from the fridge, whacked the pan upside down on the counter, and ta-da! New crayons! 

This was a really fun way to use up crayon bits.  I especially enjoyed watching my big girl's sorting method.  It goes along the lines of beautiful(pink or some variation of pink) or not-beautiful(any other color).  Ha!  They'll be nice for Baby T in a couple of months, too.  Nice and big and easy to grip.  Right now he thinks they're mighty fine teething toys.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

My Arthritis Story

Hello, my reader friends.  I've missed you so.  I've been absent for over two weeks and finally have such a build up of must-blog ideas and stories that I cannot put this off any longer.  You see, I have a bit of news and a story to tell you, and I've been avoiding it for reasons I can't put my finger on.  So, I'm just going to jump in feet first and get it done with so we can go back to the fun stuff.  You may remember in my heating pad post I mentioned having arthritis, this is a story about that.

We had our third child, the handsome Baby T, last September.  In early November, I was trying to peel some crayons for a craft with the older two and my fingers hurt, so I stopped after two or three.  I didn't pay much attention to it, possibly because I was a bit busy caring for 2 small children and a newborn.  That night I got to thinking.  My fingers had been swollen since Baby T's birth.  Swelling is common, normal, after childbirth.  One of my nurses even said it could persist for a few weeks.  But 6 weeks is more than a few. 

So, the next morning, I did a little googling.  And then I called my sister and asked her to please talk me down, I was sure I had Rheumatoid Arthritis and was freaking out a little.  She calmed me down and told me to hang up and make a doctor's appointment.  So, I did.  This was on Friday.  Over the weekend my fingers started hurting even when I wasn't using them. 

Fast forward through over 6 months of doctor visits, blood work, anti-inflammatories, and prayer.  I finally have an official diagnosis.  It turns out, my original diagnosis was correct, I do have Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA).  As of our last check I was still seronegative, meaning the antibodies in my blood that are present in 75% of RA patients haven't yet made their appearance.  I was last tested in November, shortly after onset.  We'll test again this summer.  It really makes no difference, though.  RA is RA. 

To say it's been a tough pill to swallow is an understatement.  In fact, I think it's still stuck in my throat somewhere.  I am active and independent, I'm busy and a hard worker, and I'm YOUNG.  I have so much to do, so much I want to do.  And this disease is going to change things.  To say otherwise is ignorance.  I may, no, I will do the things that are important to me still.  But, I may have to do them slower or differently than I first planned. 

Right now my feelings are all over the place.  I feel stubborn and strong and ready to fight this disease.  At the same time, I feel scared, unsure of what the future will bring.  Will it bring disability and me burdening my loved ones?  I hope not, I pray not, and I'm doing all I can to lessen my chances of that.  Will it bring this disease to my children?  Oh God, I pray not.  Perhaps it will bring my family closer together.  Or a cure.  Yes, let's hope and pray for a cure, or at least remission.  Other times, I admit I'm angry or least resentful.  It's so frustrating to not be able to open a package or to struggle with tasks I did last year without thinking. 

And, I feel a bit like I've been in the closet.  I'm not ashamed of my arthritis in any way, but I am shy and a bit proud.  I don't want to be viewed as a complainer and have told very few people in real life about my situation as a result.  And, it seems the people I have told aren't really very comfortable talking about it.  People either shut down or act like nothing's wrong.  Which is understandable, but hard.

Also, I don't really think most people know a great deal about RA.  Even with my medical background, all I knew was that it was an autoimmune disease that affected the joints.  I've learned a LOT in the last 6 months.  Recently, I came across and have learned even more.  I strongly encourage you to visit that site and check out her RA Info and RA 101 pages.  Especially if someone you know in real life has RA.  It may give you a better understanding of them and the disease they're living with. 

So, anyway, that's the scoop.  I've been processing my official diagnosis and trying to live life in as normal a way as possible.  I'm staying positive for the most part, but the occasional good cry sneaks it's way in.  And, that's ok, too. 


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